Finding an Invincible Summer Within

“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.” ― Albert Camus

February Snow + Fallout Shelter
February Snow + Fallout Shelter

Winter can seem like a deep darkness without an exit. The season brings depression to people who are most sensitive to daylight, with seasonal affective disorder. One long winter many years ago I spent 10 weeks in bed, unable to go to school or work and it was this time of year, just before spring appears all around – I forgot it was coming.

Is it the lack of light or of color? Taking this photo of a snowy tree in New York City this February, I caught the yellow nuclear fallout shelter sign behind it. And today in the news were 6 leaking radiation waste tanks on the west coast of the US, that engineers are struggling to clean up, government workers are quick to say are still safe. Oddly, the photo reminds me not of the depth of winter, or the danger of radiation, but of the hopefulness of people who think to build a shelter. Surely these were not the same ones who were creating the bombs we would shelter from or the waste we buried, I think. Color, color is my invincible summer.

Yellow reminds me of light and of spring to come, of new leaves and flower buds. In the urban garden behind my house, though it is February, today I saw the big tree beyond the fence has pale yellow-gray knobs forming. These will become leaves. Tiny red and green pyramids only a few millimeters across are emerging now as leaf buds, the first sign of life in a rose-bush surviving its first winter in my backyard garden. With a little color, I can find an invincible summer inside me too.

What is your “invincible summer”?

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